“GOING THROUGH IT” finds British Columbia’s Darrian Gerard doing what she does best: turning emotional limbo into something you can blast in your headphones at 2 a.m. and think, yep, that’s exactly it. Written, played, and produced almost entirely by Darrian herself, the track is a one-woman storm, about wanting answers from someone who keeps you dangling in the dark. It’s the sound of being more invested than you meant to be and realising it a beat too late.
The song drops you straight into its mood with a heavy, deep bass that swallows the room, pulling you into an electronic haze. Over that, her high, slightly grainy voice comes in low and deadpanned, like she’s trying not to let the feelings show, but they’re leaking through anyway. She asks, “Why is my heart beating out of my veins?” like an intrusive thought you’ve been trying to shake off all week.
Then the chorus hits and everything sharpens. Cymbals slice through, the beats drop in a steady, chest-thumping stride, and she climbs into a higher register, more desperate and exposed, as she sings, “I wanna Goddamn feel something, anything / I’m begging you for you to want me.” That echoed line, “Goddamn feel something, I wanna Goddamn feel something,” ghosting after the hook comes straight from the original iPhone voice memo, and you can hear it being all messy and raw like a thought she never meant anyone else to hear.
The verses slide back into that tight, simmering groove as she confesses she wants to disappear just to see if he’d notice, stuck between fantasy, self-doubt, and stubborn hope. By the time the final chorus rolls around, “GOING THROUGH IT” bottles that suspended, knot-in-your-stomach feeling with unnerving accuracy. It’s a soundtrack for anyone stuck refreshing a chat that still says “last seen recently.”
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Review by: Naomi Joan